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20:13 May 27 2011
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So something interesting happened today.



We had a staff challenge today in the lounge and this has been going on for weeks. We all filled out these surveys and questions are asked and we have to guess who it's about.



Well this one came up today.



"I'm pretty nifty at coding and doing some HTML. I'm not a pro, but I know my way around."



No one knew who it was. (It was me of course as most of you guys can tell from my profile)



After I revealed myself, I was kindly asked if before school starts next year if I would teach some of that knowledge to the other teachers. They each have a webspace on the school site that they are required to fill out. Well I guess most of them don't know how and they want to make it look good.



I find it ironic I'll be teaching teachers. XD



But I'm going to do it.

21:29 May 26 2011
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So today I swallow my pride and call the doctors office about my female issue (I've had my period for almost 2 weeks at this point) just to find out my doctor isn't there.



The nurse talked to the doctor that shares an office and they are trying to figure out what they want to do now. They will call me back. They have my records and will make an emergency appointment if needed.



I explained to them that I was aware that there might be spotting, but when I have to wear a tampon...this isn't spotting. She agreed and asked if I had any other signs of a normal period. I told her that I hadn't so this was awkward for me.



I'm scared. Maybe I'll get an answer, maybe not. *shrug*

01:32 May 26 2011
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Well I fixed my issue with that program.



Either that or I worked fast enough to get it done before the program crashed. Whichever works.



I had shut the computer down when I went to work so I think that helped.



Went shopping tonight and picked up some sport bras and a pj set for me that was more fitting for summertime.



The bras hold me in really well. o.o

They will be great for the summer program I'm helping out with.



And swings are evil. The girls challenged me. They said they didn't think I knew how to use the swings.



Bet your ass I proved them wrong.



Also bet your ass my legs are sore as fuck.



It was fun though. A great workout and nice to have some fun with the kids. The girls enjoyed it.



I'm going to miss the kids this summer.



4 school days left.

15:52 May 25 2011
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Fuck you Artisteer. Fuck you.



"Ran out of memory. Program shutting down. Insufficiant RAM."



The fuck?



I have 6gb of ram currently. That is like...a lot more than most standard computers come with. You are telling me I ran OUT of it?



I'm in the middle of doing a blog for someone that is paying me and you decide to be a stupid ass program and pull this crap. You worked just fine on my piece of shit computer that only had 2gb of ram. 6 not enough now? I installed you from the same fucking cd as before.



Not a good day so far. Not a good day at all......

20:49 May 24 2011
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My job has some interesting moments, but never have I EVER thought something like what happened would occur.



Today.



I had to tell a third grade girl to put her pants back on.



Her argument?



She had a swimsuit on under it.



She also has a habit of taking her socks off. That shit needs to stop too.



Feet are gross.



But her pants. Off.



I don't know what she was trying to do, but most of the boys find her disgusting since she is well...disgusting.



In 5 days they will be considered students at the other school. Meaning they will be mixed in with the middle schoolers.



Poor girl? o.O



*twitch*



Edit: On another note. My job is safe. Long story short, the principal is at fault.

13:24 May 23 2011
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So last night I had a friend ask me if moving up here was really worth it.



Was it worth leaving everything I had behind just for a guy?



Well before I left, another friend stated to me that there is someone out there for everyone. And the fact that there are 6.8 billion people in the world, chances are they don't always live near you.



Almost a year after I moved I can look back and say a few things.



I found a job up here doing something I love. It falls in a line of work I had wanted to do since I was younger and I am grateful for this job.



I live in a nice safe place. There is no real fear of being hurt or getting sick.



I am getting the help I need for my health problems. I am on the right medications and seeing the right doctors. I have insurance (granted it's through the state) that I can rely on if I have to go to the ER or such.



And the best part of it all?



I have an amazing person to share it with. Someone who loves me no matter what. Someone who holds me when I am having a bad day. Someone that takes me out on a four wheeler when I'm having a good day.



I don't regret moving up here. Sure, it gets fucking colder than a witches tit during winter. But being with someone to warm me up makes it slightly tolerable. Plus, it doesn't get to be 100 degrees with humidity that slaps you in the face here. The summer weather is really nice.



I like it here. I wanna stay. Florida is nice, to visit. But this was totally worth the move.

20:09 May 20 2011
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On a total serious note.



I have got to stop bumping my damn head.



Today it was bad...so bad that I had the kids helping me up and getting someone to take me down to the office.



How this time?



I was outside with my group of kids and was walking under the bridge and they thought it would be funny to bounce on it while I was under it and I didn't know they were above me.....



The hard plastic and metal came down right on top of my head with the force of about 10 kids jumping down....



Down I went. :(



I'm going to lay down in a bit since I need to rest.

20:50 May 19 2011
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I put this in the house, but I'm going to put it here as well for more feedback.

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My favorite set of twins were pulled out of school today. 8 days before the end of the year...



Why?



Because of one student that was violent and being a bully.



Not any student.



One of the students I'm assigned to. I don't know if I should feel like I've failed at my job. I've followed every channel associated with this student, right up to the superintendent. In the last few months the child just would pull away from me and run off campus. I didn't know what to do at that point except write up the reports and call the officer.



I don't know where I should stand on this. Both him and his sister are like this. They don't care and don't listen to authority...



*sigh*

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At this point, they are doing an investigation and my job is on the line. I am not suspended because there is not enough proof that there was negligence on my part.



I have a paper trail on this child a mile and half long to back up that I have done what I've needed to. I am hoping that is what saves me. My anal retentiveness in documenting everything...



The parents were notified since the start of the year each and every time there was an issue with the student. When a parent is notified, the principal is as well.



I'm stressed. I was told by the people that will be involved with the investigation, that I will most likely be ok, but since I'm the one that works closest to the child, I'm first on the list.



The incident that happened yesterday occurred at the bus stop. That is out of my control. So that factors in. But there were prior issues and the parents of the other children had raised concerns. Concerns that I was NEVER notified about. The principal was and this information was never passed down to me.



I don't know what will happen, but the next week or so will be hell for me.

13:53 May 19 2011
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I think the Badger and I would agree when we would say that Mother Nature needs her ass kicked this week....



I won't give too much warning on mine. You wander in here, you get grossed out, your damn fault.



I'm on Depo. My doctor and I chose that option together so that I wouldn't get my period.



Would. not. get. period.



WHY THE FUCK DO I HAVE BLOOD CLOTS THE SIZE OF GOLF BALLS COMING OUT OF ME?



These make me far from happy. Because I can't wear a tampon. I have to wear a pad.



I run around at work. I do not care what these companies say. Pads do not work if you gotta run and turn fast because of children. That is why the fuck they invented tampons.



Buuuut. Blood clot is bigger. >:(



The good in all of this? It also is making my other end act up so if I eat stuff I'm allergic to, I won't know the fucking difference. HELLO SKITTLES.



Fucking vag of doom.

01:05 May 18 2011
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So...I called my mother (after killing Sean's eardrums screaming) to let her know something I was looking to get myself as an early birthday gift.



She asked me how much they were and I told her.



SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO



Guess who I get to go see in concert on July 6th?!?!?!?!



Ready???



Ready?



Here it comes *drum roll*



I GET TO SEE A PERFECT CIRCLE.





My mom is getting me one ticket and I have to get Sean a ticket. I'm so fucking excited. This totally rocks.

20:14 May 17 2011
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Knowing how to read your bank account information and how to speak to the agent when there is an issue is a handy talent.



Amazon canceled my order but had already placed the hold on the cash to pay for it. Well it hadn't cleared yet.



So I called the bank. Told them to release the hold so I have my money today, not next week. She lifted it and my money showed right up.



They laughed and said I sounded like I dealt with money all the time.



It was only 40 dollars but it was 40 dollars that wasn't going to sit in limbo for a week. I hate that shit and I do what I can to get it where it needs to go as fast as possible.



My mother used to swear up and down I'd be a great accountant.

16:21 May 15 2011
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Alright.



So I didn't share this yesterday because it didn't quite sink it.



I got a letter from SSA stating that when they receive the authorization form from my attorney they will go ahead with my ALH review. They can start as soon as this week if the paperwork is faxed.



They are doing my administrative law hearing differently then normal. Instead of going in front of a judge, to expedite my case, they will attempt to do it without me. If they can't come to a favorable decision without me present, I will have a video conference with a judge and they will make a decision then.



This week or next is when they will be attempting to do the review without me there.



This means I will have an answer by the end of summer for sure.



I'm a ball of nerves.

01:19 May 14 2011
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After seeing VW's video of Glee's version of Friday, I went and youtubed some Glee.



What is the fucking deal?



They suck. o.o



I swear when I was listening to them attempt to cover Queen, I wanted to cry.



*hides in a corner shaking*

15:54 May 12 2011
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Having massive effing net issues all morning. I think my wireless adapter for my computer is finally crapping out. It is almost 4 years old. :(



I can stay connected to my games just fine with minor issues, but I lose the ability to connect to websites. Once I closed out of my game, I had no problems with the websites.



The websites kept giving me DNS errors. I know this for a fact because Chrome told me so. I tried in Firefox and just won't load.



Thanks Chrome, for telling me why the hell I can't load a page.



And paypal has pissed me off. It took the payment I made for tubes. Then it stated I didn't have the money. Well I did. And it kept trying. So I had my boyfriend send my bank some money so that I could cover the next attempt for it. Well paypal didn't catch the transfer, so my paypal account is in the negative. I figured when the money cleared, I could put the money into my paypal account and all would be good.



Fucking bank took my monthly fee. So yeah....fuck.



I'll sort it out tomorrow. Just right now not in the mood. And I'm 100% sure it used my funds from my paypal account to cover the purchase. I had the money, I had the funds to cover it. What the fuck.



Ugh. Fucking paypal.



It's not that much money, but it was my anniversary gift, so I know I had the money to cover it. I'll just put the money in my paypal account tomorrow. *sigh*



Guess that means no tablet. That was what I was hoping to get to cheer me up.

14:49 May 12 2011
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Ok. For those that were in my cam last night. There was a question asked about if I like drinking energy drinks and I answered yes.



I should have clarified that.



There is only one energy drink I really like. And it's this one.







I am a coffee drinker. But the coffeepot is in the basement and coffee is only made at 5am. I'm still sleeping at 5am.



Cold or reheated coffee is ick. This stuff is yum.

00:16 May 10 2011
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I'm in a rather nasty mood (not 100% because of the lack of net today) and trying to help my friend who was officially diagnosed with BPD.



We had an idea that was wrong with him and we talked about it the other night.



Pretty much I nailed things right on the head and scared the shit out of him when I called a manic mood and then saw the shift into depression. I know it so well because I live through it.



So he went to a doctor today and then told me that I called that one right.



But there are other issues and I'm trying to put my nasty mood aside to help my friend.



Not easy.



My foul mood is because of a combination of things.



Sean's mother killed my herb garden. -.-



The net was out for 7 hours.



My rehab specialist canceled our appointment for today. Again.



Work sucked since it rained while we had the kids outside and they kept bitching.



And I got hit in the nose by a football.



Bleh.



Not to mention I'm sleeping like shit and this giant pimple won't go away.

22:29 May 09 2011
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Yay nets are back.



I called and bitched. :D

21:55 May 09 2011
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My internet company sucks....again.

We have no net. It's been down for about 7 hours now.



"They are working as fast as they can to fix the problem."



Ugh.

14:45 May 07 2011
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Who the hell wakes up on the day of their anniversary due to a dream about their other half cheating on them?



Ugh.



Not this shit again.



Today will be a good day. I will make damn sure of it.

22:30 May 06 2011
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It was nice to talk with my brother for 3 hours on skype. I miss him and he wasn't a total dick.



We joked around and I almost cried a few times.



I can't wait to get to Florida to see him. I just wish money wasn't the way it was right now.

03:11 May 05 2011
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Just to tease Moonie, here is a picture from our dinner out tonight.



We were going to go to the trashy messican place, but ended up at a rather nice one.



Here are my tasty nachos. :D

03:49 May 01 2011
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I think I'm really going to have to stop drinking for real these days.



I don't do it often, but when I do...I feel the effects.



Not physically. Not morally.



Emotionally.



It fucks with my medication and my moods bad.



I am guessing the depressive qualities of it threw my meds into overdrive. I've been cycling all day. I've gone from super manic to crying depressed in a matter of minutes.



Thankfully I have years of experience so I know when to excuse myself from situations that are making me depressed. Mania is something I'm still working on.



I shouldn't say "making" me depressed. I guess the better word would be exasperating the depression.



When I'm in that phase of my cycling, I feel as if I'm alone no matter how many people are around. It seems that the more that are around, the worse I get. That is why a lot of the time I go MIA around here and get silent in my journal. I don't like talking when I'm too depressed.



I am more likely to open up with my mania. It's how I work.



Oddly, I'm very comfortable talking about my BPD with others. I'm not proud of it, nor do I broadcast it as the first thing about me when you meet me, but I will talk about it without issues.



I live a life where my moods have to be controlled by medication. It's something I had to accept and learn to deal with. Even though I'm on medication, it doesn't stop me from cycling. I just do it on a less extreme scale.



It still sucks and still is not fun. It's my life and I have to live it.